Who Am I??

Delhi->hyd->Pune, India
An environmental engg turned Software Engg working for a MNC. U cn call me Peenuts..thats what my long lost frend used 2 call me, and its in his memory.

9/17/07

Feelin Hurt

Dated : The nite of 16th Sep
I am filled with vengeance..which is due to a no. of factors: betrayal, lies, unkept promises and the fact that i am alone in the house makes me feel all the more worse.
I just want to insult, humiliate all those responsible for making me feel so.....but then though it might be a temporary relief, wont it promote such feelings..wont i feel more vengeful again and again..isnt it like 'aag ko hawa dena'......huh...
So all i have done is that i have shut my mouth and forced myself into silence.....speaking when required and with utmost caution.

I feel like digging a grave and burying my heart in it...life seems so much better without it.

5 comments:

Aditi said...

hmm i dont think u should bury your heart.. for if u cant feel the bad stuff u wont also be able to feel the good stuff eh?
hang in there.. i know it sounds preachy but hang in there..

timora said...

been through one of those days myself...just feeling screaming out loud but instead just swallowing all that anger huh??
let it out though ..u'll feel better

Peenuts said...

Nahi yaar...i dont want to hurt anyone else too....if i burst out it wl b too harsh, for them and me also...thats y m so bottled up :|

adi said...

kya hua tha? kuch bolega bhi ya nahin?

Anonymous said...

Hey alok...agar bataney key liye shabd hotey to bata deta naa.... :| I guess somethings r better left unsaid..
-Pushkin

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