Who Am I??

Delhi->hyd->Pune, India
An environmental engg turned Software Engg working for a MNC. U cn call me Peenuts..thats what my long lost frend used 2 call me, and its in his memory.

5/8/08

5 years from now..

5 years from now, wht i will be??? Its another consequence of the father-son talk i had..man sometimes i just dont wanna go home.....jab bhi ghar jaaney ka time hota hai, zindagi key sawaloon key jawaab gol ho jaatey hain :| ...khair...coming back to the point...

i said i had no idea wht i wud b 5 yrs from now, but i dont see myself a software engineer 5 yrs hence...its doesnt inspire me much..and apart from career security, there is nothing else that motivates me enuf to stay here...i wud like to be a consultant, but with me not able to make it to any top notch B-skool, it seems a distant dream....., may b i wil b a teacher...yups wanted to be one since long, even tried to be a part of teaching team at my company run charity school, but cudnt find the 'ever elusive time'.....may b an event manager...waisey bhi thats wht i do part time, infact most of the time...organising parties, trips, etc....and like it tooo...may b trying to be something i wil end up being nothing...shayad 5 saal baad i dont hav enuf money to buy myself even 2 meals..

yeh soch key fatt jaati hai, par this is Life..rite..5 yrs from now life seems to be hell......and all i want is that i am in this mess all alone....atleast i wud hav the consolation that i dint sacrifice anyone else's life while pursuing my 'sanak'. dad said find someone who can be ur support in ur failures aur shayad aisi koi hai bhi..but then main kisi ka buraa nahi kar sakta so may b m better of being alone...hopefully i wil hav a good time in my next life :)

5 comments:

meet_me said...

hmmm
that's practically the reason i'd either want to live a secluded life - no commitments, no responsibilities, no blames nothing at all...
or i'd have wanted to b with the one for whom i'd hav done whatever it takes....
now, pretty much everything has lost its meaning. i search for solitude, or i want just someone to talk to, no expectations, no commitments, no reasons. bt yea, i still want someone.
i miss "my" life...

autumn said...

Btw, 2nd last line, 2nd last word....its not better of but, " better off".........HUH !

autumn said...

just like, this better off Should be written as ' better off' n not "better off ".........

tere sath rehte rehte to meri bhasha ki MBA ho gayi hai........!!!!!!!!

adi said...

hmmm
"aur shayad aisi koi hai bhi"
m more interested to know who that is..
tera toh waise bhi kuch hone wala nahi hai :)

Anonymous said...

Naam...hmm..alok i guess u know her better than me.. :) Ab bhi naam bataney ki jaroorat hai kya :)

-Peenuts

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