Who Am I??

Delhi->hyd->Pune, India
An environmental engg turned Software Engg working for a MNC. U cn call me Peenuts..thats what my long lost frend used 2 call me, and its in his memory.

12/30/06

For Your Information

It ws supposed to be the last working day of 2006 yesterday, but here i am back in office..had 2 giv a mock test but didnt as HAD 2 COME 2 OFFICE..feeling really frustrated even though there s really no need 2 feel so, but just cant help...my life has become so BOund...hav no control over it...m really cursing myself at this pt of time.......Yesterday Mom asked me, when i wl b coming 2 Delhi...i said that may b they wont c my face again..b'coz i wl come back only on three conditions : If I get a tranfer to Chandigarh (chances of which are very very low), if get a new job (chances of which are also get low day after day as I am getting kicked from one interview to another, and 3rd, if i resign from Infy..which wud never happen as HOME is the last thing i wud go to after resigning, coz i wud b compared..WITH OTHER PEOPLE and my father wud think i am a baby..keep running from situations, and then he wud compare me with others..Does Mr XYZ think the same..MR ABC is happy..y so...SO HOME s the last place i wud go to FOR SURE..sometimes i question my existence..man y i am living, y dont i die..there are so many people who die everyday..y i am not among one of them..becoz my existence doesnt make any difference,..to anybody...and my death wont cause a bother to ANYONE..so y i aint among them..y do i get up every day..to get only more frustrated.

Feeling very very frustrated..Just wish that coming year (If i Live 2 see it) will be better, a lot better.

7 comments:

adi said...

abe oye
saale kamine
tu meri emotions ko kaise capture kar sakta hai ;)

the only grace that i've is the love i've got by my side

take care buddy
m there for u

Anonymous said...

Haan chal saath saath martey hain..hehehehehe
--pushkin

adi said...

nahi sath nahi marenge, main tujhe dhakka de aaoonga aur us par ek blog post likh doonga ;)

hope u r out of ur blues, i say 'ur blues'...think about that

autumn said...

maro kaminon......poori paltan ke saath maro............

peenut said...

Aur aap to jaisey badi jeeney ki tamanna rakhi baithi hain..care to join us..hum dono pehley aapko dakha de dengey ;)

meet_me said...

Things will get better...
Running from them ain't a solution.
And I know u can fight ... And ur existence makes a difference... to family n friends....
And don't lose heart... it's just a phase dear....
U'll overcome it ...
God bless u :)
And sincerely praying for u ....

meet_me said...

hey and look at the thought of the day on ur blog !!

Life's greatest happiness is to be convinced we are loved.
Victor Hugo

Cheers buddy !!!!

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