Who Am I??

An environmental engg turned Software Engg working for a MNC. U cn call me Peenuts..thats what my long lost frend used 2 call me, and its in his memory.

10/3/08

On the cross roads of Life

Shakespeare said (I hope m rite :P) .. to B or not to B..well thats a tricky ques, specially when u r not sure where r the problem lies..Professionally things hav been going wrong..After my first project here nothin seems to hav been the way i wanted to..My 2nd proj..Dint like the work..(though work env was gud)..My 3rd proj..work s gud..but work env..bad..quite bad...

On the contrary..my collegue..who was with me in the first project, and joined the 2nd one with me, stuck 2 it and has won many laurels...

I wonder where i lack..is it that 'I shud keep tryin..looking for something that brings out the passion in me' or ' Is it that i hav a problem..a problem of finding faults with whtever i get'...havent been able to answer but i hav opted for a modified form of first one..I wil try 2 bring out my passion..and if i cant do that..wil look for something else..

On the personal front i realised that one who has to go away, will go away...and moreover, if u cant make others feel wht u feel for them, then its better to let things take it course....becoz its too late...its no use now tryin to hold on to slipping sand.....

History and life repeat themselves...my life is repeating itself..and m on the verge of being 'alone'...i hope my fears are baseless..i really do...u also pray for the same.

'Chodh aaye they usey yaadon ki galiyon main..
Par aaj wo phir aa gayi hai..mujhe galey laganey.....Meri Tanhayee'

M tryin to live LIFE...and hope and faith is all i have.


3 comments:

chunky said...

oh mannnn
it seems like i've been alone forever ....
and yes i'll pray for u ... it's these difficult times that are called "the tests" of life... n it's in these times that we actually have to prove our ability. it's these times that help us learn to hold on. So yea, u've got to be holding on... all the while striving to come through it ... till you actually make through it all ... and u'll be a winner

everyone's different ... in terms of what they want, and how they are ... it's ok to not be like others... to want change in life ... as long as u are happy!

take care of urself... bye fr now

Anonymous said...

I agree things are bad, but not as bad as you see them. Or may be you are internally not equipped to face them.

Life is not easy pushkin. Whoever is to leave will leave. You can’t do anything about it. And perhaps u’ll leave before I do....try and trust the ppl around you…clutching on to sands, won’t help….

Even I am at crossroads. Critical decisions that nobody else can help me with…except my dad…and he has been that one pillar of my strengths till date….i am taking huge, but calculated and manageable risks….don’t know what s in store…just want to repeat 'His' ( nt dadz :P) words here….

"we both need our slice of luck here...
best of luck bhavna..."
best of luck pushkin...

Reni said...

i have no big philosophies 2 say, dude...tis almost da same thing i'm goin thru myself...but wat keeps me goin on is the "little" blessins i get in life...live the moment...

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